Colorful Ciss

Hi there, I recently have gotten engaged and am extremely ecstatic. We have taken care of planning out our necessities for our marriage, and have moved into the beginning stages of wedding brainstorming. However, as I am starting to think about the wedding day and what I want, I realize that I have an extra worry for my big day. All I hear is that it is to be "my day." But what happens if I can't walk down the isle? What if I have so much pain that I can't enjoy the day for myself? The process of planning such a significant day is worrisome enough as it is. But, to add in having to consider that my body may not be able to do such a simple task as to function the way it should, that is a whole other worry.  I feel a little more confident that my day will go smoothly because of the treatment I am receiving. But there is still that worry. That little nagging voice telling me to be careful or I may blow it for myself. And I don't know if...

Hi there, Everyone says that life is unpredictable. But really, life is crazy. No, no, life is insane. No. Life is an absolute mental, psycho maniac, with a side of nuts. One minute it's happy and fun and going right and in an instant it throws you into a bad cycle of unfortunate events.  For me, it has been literally one bad thing after another occurring for over a year. From a traumatic event, to people going through surgeries, to life long diseases, to car issues. And I know that we are supposed to look at the "bright side." We are supposed focus on the good. But you know what, sometimes that just isn't what I want to do. Sometimes, I just want to be upset about my situation. I want to be mad about what is going on. I want to have a "woe is me" moment. Anybody else?   Now, as I have mentioned in other posts, I work in a restaurant. Unfortunately, that happens to be a high stress environment as it is. But I'm sure everyone who has ever had a job ca...