Life
Hi there,
Everyone says that life is unpredictable. But really, life is crazy. No, no, life is insane. No. Life is an absolute mental, psycho maniac, with a side of nuts. One minute it's happy and fun and going right and in an instant it throws you into a bad cycle of unfortunate events. For me, it has been literally one bad thing after another occurring for over a year. From a traumatic event, to people going through surgeries, to life long diseases, to car issues. And I know that we are supposed to look at the "bright side." We are supposed focus on the good. But you know what, sometimes that just isn't what I want to do. Sometimes, I just want to be upset about my situation. I want to be mad about what is going on. I want to have a "woe is me" moment. Anybody else?
Now, as I have mentioned in other posts, I work in a restaurant. Unfortunately, that happens to be a high stress environment as it is. But I'm sure everyone who has ever had a job can relate to having those days that are exceptionally stressful. Where it just seems like for no reason you have too many monkeys on your back. Some days, I just want to yell and scream and throw a temper tantrum with the 3-year-old girl on table #18 who didn't get a green crayon to color with. Okay, maybe not. But I do want to just look at anyone giving me a hard time and ask them to please give me some slack.
You know what though? It is these days that I feel like Super Woman. Because, on these days that I want to just explode, I don't. I work hard. I get myself moving. I work my tiny butt off. I continue my day. And you know what, I do it not only with an autoimmune disorder, but also on chemo. And, the fact that not only do people not know, but they don't even notice that it is more difficult for me, is one gigantic pat on the back. Because I can look at myself at the end of the day and be proud of myself. (Maybe even reward myself with a bowl of ice cream.)
So, to anyone else who is in the same boat as me, battling cancer or living with an autoimmune disorder or whatever else: if you need to cry or scream or complain, then go right ahead. But then take a look at yourself. Give yourself a pat on the back. You accomplished so much today. More than a lot of people know. You are Batman. The same as you have always been in everyones eyes, and fighting bad guys when no one is looking. Good for you!
Bad things happen. That's life. However, I am a firm believer in the saying "everything happens for a reason." (But it still sucks when the bad things happen.) So, until that reason decides to present itself to us, let us continue to be super in life!
Nikki De
Everyone says that life is unpredictable. But really, life is crazy. No, no, life is insane. No. Life is an absolute mental, psycho maniac, with a side of nuts. One minute it's happy and fun and going right and in an instant it throws you into a bad cycle of unfortunate events. For me, it has been literally one bad thing after another occurring for over a year. From a traumatic event, to people going through surgeries, to life long diseases, to car issues. And I know that we are supposed to look at the "bright side." We are supposed focus on the good. But you know what, sometimes that just isn't what I want to do. Sometimes, I just want to be upset about my situation. I want to be mad about what is going on. I want to have a "woe is me" moment. Anybody else?
Now, as I have mentioned in other posts, I work in a restaurant. Unfortunately, that happens to be a high stress environment as it is. But I'm sure everyone who has ever had a job can relate to having those days that are exceptionally stressful. Where it just seems like for no reason you have too many monkeys on your back. Some days, I just want to yell and scream and throw a temper tantrum with the 3-year-old girl on table #18 who didn't get a green crayon to color with. Okay, maybe not. But I do want to just look at anyone giving me a hard time and ask them to please give me some slack.
You know what though? It is these days that I feel like Super Woman. Because, on these days that I want to just explode, I don't. I work hard. I get myself moving. I work my tiny butt off. I continue my day. And you know what, I do it not only with an autoimmune disorder, but also on chemo. And, the fact that not only do people not know, but they don't even notice that it is more difficult for me, is one gigantic pat on the back. Because I can look at myself at the end of the day and be proud of myself. (Maybe even reward myself with a bowl of ice cream.)
So, to anyone else who is in the same boat as me, battling cancer or living with an autoimmune disorder or whatever else: if you need to cry or scream or complain, then go right ahead. But then take a look at yourself. Give yourself a pat on the back. You accomplished so much today. More than a lot of people know. You are Batman. The same as you have always been in everyones eyes, and fighting bad guys when no one is looking. Good for you!
Bad things happen. That's life. However, I am a firm believer in the saying "everything happens for a reason." (But it still sucks when the bad things happen.) So, until that reason decides to present itself to us, let us continue to be super in life!
Nikki De
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