Engaging in worry
Hi there,
I recently have gotten engaged and am extremely ecstatic. We have taken care of planning out our necessities for our marriage, and have moved into the beginning stages of wedding brainstorming. However, as I am starting to think about the wedding day and what I want, I realize that I have an extra worry for my big day. All I hear is that it is to be "my day." But what happens if I can't walk down the isle? What if I have so much pain that I can't enjoy the day for myself?
The process of planning such a significant day is worrisome enough as it is. But, to add in having to consider that my body may not be able to do such a simple task as to function the way it should, that is a whole other worry. I feel a little more confident that my day will go smoothly because of the treatment I am receiving. But there is still that worry. That little nagging voice telling me to be careful or I may blow it for myself. And I don't know if anyone of you have tried to plan an important life event, but I imagine fatigue will not be working in my favor.
I also just worry that when I get down to the end, I will try to bite off more than I can chew when it comes to scheduling. There are many things that need to be done very close to the wedding day, and that includes treatments, as well as other wedding stuff. I am just so grateful for a boss who is understanding when it comes to requesting time off as well, and they know the difference between requesting off for personal days and for necessary days.
I am thankful also to have a fiancé and friends who understand what my body can handle, and who remind me not to push myself. As odd as it may sound, I am glad that I was diagnosed when I was. Although I will still have to worry about walking, which is lame. (pun entirely intended!) I also have a doctor that I can go to and work with to make sure I am taking the mandatory steps for my health during this entire wedding process. When this is all said and done, weather I can walk down the isle or not, I am sure that my disease will not stop me from marrying my one true love. And who knows, maybe my disease will be a blessing in the sense that it will require me to kick back and enjoy myself, and let others pamper me for once!
Nikki De
I recently have gotten engaged and am extremely ecstatic. We have taken care of planning out our necessities for our marriage, and have moved into the beginning stages of wedding brainstorming. However, as I am starting to think about the wedding day and what I want, I realize that I have an extra worry for my big day. All I hear is that it is to be "my day." But what happens if I can't walk down the isle? What if I have so much pain that I can't enjoy the day for myself?
The process of planning such a significant day is worrisome enough as it is. But, to add in having to consider that my body may not be able to do such a simple task as to function the way it should, that is a whole other worry. I feel a little more confident that my day will go smoothly because of the treatment I am receiving. But there is still that worry. That little nagging voice telling me to be careful or I may blow it for myself. And I don't know if anyone of you have tried to plan an important life event, but I imagine fatigue will not be working in my favor.
I also just worry that when I get down to the end, I will try to bite off more than I can chew when it comes to scheduling. There are many things that need to be done very close to the wedding day, and that includes treatments, as well as other wedding stuff. I am just so grateful for a boss who is understanding when it comes to requesting time off as well, and they know the difference between requesting off for personal days and for necessary days.
I am thankful also to have a fiancé and friends who understand what my body can handle, and who remind me not to push myself. As odd as it may sound, I am glad that I was diagnosed when I was. Although I will still have to worry about walking, which is lame. (pun entirely intended!) I also have a doctor that I can go to and work with to make sure I am taking the mandatory steps for my health during this entire wedding process. When this is all said and done, weather I can walk down the isle or not, I am sure that my disease will not stop me from marrying my one true love. And who knows, maybe my disease will be a blessing in the sense that it will require me to kick back and enjoy myself, and let others pamper me for once!
Nikki De
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